Tuesday, May 06, 2008
please stand by...
Please excuse the dearth of writing, commenting and general social networking as of late. I have been experiencing a crisis of church over the last several weeks... ok months... ok years... but it has come to a crux over the past couple of weeks.
Two things should be noted:
One, I am experiencing a crisis of church, not a crisis of faith.
Two, I am experiencing a crisis of church, not a crisis of Church.
Not quite two weeks ago, I let the elders of my congregation know that I was removing myself from the covenant of belonging I had signed with them. There were many things leading up to my decision, spanning about two years of prayer and counsel. Some issues that emerged over the past 2-3 years were very big, and perhaps I should have acted sooner. Some issues were very small and would not have stood alone as reasons to walk away. Some issues seemed to tear my heart apart into tiny, unrecognizable pieces.
I am still in the process of letting people know that I have left, either as they ask about my absence or as it seems appropriate during a time of interaction.
Some people have asked to know more about my decision. I am willing to get together and talk about what I have processed so far, but ask for understanding and patience as this has proven to be more difficult for me than I had expected - and letting people know has been more difficult than the decision!
I hope to be back to my writing-commenting-socializing self soon, so stay tuned!